en·am·ored–verb (used with object)
1. to fill or inflame with love: to be enamored of a certain lady; a brilliant woman with whom he became enamored.
tr.v. en·am·ored , en·am·or·ing , en·am·ors
To inspire with love; captivate: was enamored of the beautiful dancer; were enamored with the charming island.
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I came across this word today and it reminded me of a former love. Life is funny that way. Memories flood. Conversations of the past. This word was once used to illustrate a former lover's feelings for me. I always felt the usage of the word was very strong; after many, many times of hearing it, I equated the strength of the word to the strength of his love. Funny...
His muse.
My muse.
Peas.
Carrots.
None of which hold meaning at this point in time.
Friendship turned to love turned to an indescribable, consuming, sentiment of defeat. We lost. I lost. He lost.
Decoy love. Fallacy. Untruth. Fabrication.
It is easy to forget what was said. Some things, I will never forget. I will never forget the declaration to love endlessly. I will never forget the promise to always be honest and fair no matter the circumstance. I will never forget the promise to be in each other lives forever. I will never forget that he said, one day, he would make an honest woman out of me. I will never forget the day he said he was impatient for the day to see me as a 'cute little old lady'.
I will never forget that he chose to not choose me.
Un•en•am•ored.
